You are leaving today
and couldn't say farewell
there was no time to say Ill miss you, there was no space to say I care
In a few hours you will be breathing my air,
smelling my trees, watching my people,
seeing those tiny flowers spread on the streets
while the haze of the morning turns into spring
You said you love that land,
you said you wanted to go with me
to maybe see how summer turns into autumn
before your autumn turns into that coldness
we wont be able to avoid
But
Once you made a call that later did not respond,
you opened a door that led to an empty room,
sang a song that have no words or tune
danced a dance with no movement or steps
So I dont want you walking in my path, whether is there or here,
I don't want you talking to us whether is them or me
for you cannot end what you have begun
I dont want you looking at me with those eyes filled with wanting
for something you would never dare to get
I understand now that you needed us
so for a brief moment you could feel you have that
you have chosen not to reach,
I see now that you needed us
to dream the dreams you need to dream to keep on,
I can sense your long for us
so you could trust yourself that you can dare to live.
I see myself smiling and fulfilling emptiness that you alone could never filled before
Yet you are doing what you must do. I understand that, I respect that, I obey that
You are who you are and you'll remain that way.
But next time don't make the call,
don't smile that sweet, don't open doors, don't stir my hopes
If theres no time in you besides the time you spent in dreaming dreams.
Keep on alone, do say farewell, and leave this path

Il passero solitario

Don Quixote Grand Pas Kitri Variation

plateau.
my backbone was the strongest part of me.
ill say this proudly.
i have a trembling fear of losing balance in my life. i am an individual that, if i do not keep a leveled head, i go into a state of nirvana with life and my priorities and well-being become disordered and lost. i’ve had to teach that to myself at an early age.
friends, love. things of the like. things with pretty eyes that divert you from your destination, pursuit of your happiness.
this is why i dont believe in most people. this is why i like to avoid everything most people have to offer. this is why i bypass most things that i sense are wasteful. caring about someone and something requires energy that can be useful for more things down the road.
and once i begin to give in, i hand over my head. heart. backbone. now their life consumes mine. now there comes another voice in my head in addition to mine that i must have to put into consideration. them. him. her. suddenly the concept of “I” and “Me” becomes foriegn. Instead of it being your comfort and your sense of guidance, it becomes a terrifying loneliness.
you get it?
give smiles back. reply to her text messages. get coffee with him. laugh. buy things. eat things. do things with other human beings so that you wont go crazy. but don’t, don’t ever hand over your backbone. dont be consumed with someone that you become second, even in your own life. There is the concept of “I” that life will make you work to appreciate.

Isabel Cadena